Then there's my social life - still on quite uneasy ground after 10 years of bullying in pre-school/school and the hard process of getting over it. I just never want to alienate myself from having normal social life anymore, like I was forced back in then. Today I have few friends, mostly from work - some closer, some more distant.
Even in this crossfire I´ve managed to get from 147 lbs to 200 lbs in about 3 years, with the weight I've losed I would propably be around 220-230 at least by now. And I like the results, how I'm growing. But still...
One thing is for sure, this urge keeps getting back no matter I try to shredd it. So, I think it's time to write down my thoughts around this subject.
If you fellow gainers have any good advices, they're very welcome.